It is written--

November 23rd, 2009

a thought:)
POSTED AT 04:03 AM

I think we make our own decisions, i just think that fate sends us little signs, and it’s how we read the signs that determines whether we’re happy or not.

Currently listening to: good girls go bad
Currently feeling: thirsty

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finally:)
POSTED AT 03:27 AM

there are some things that keeps on bothering me this past few weeks....

it really bothers me a lot...

there comes a point that i really need someone whom i can talk and tell everything...

but then i decided to keep it...

and let me think about it and decide all by myself...

In decision making...

i think about the pros and cons...

the advantages and disadvantages...

and finally...

I've got an answer/solution/decision to that effin thing that 's keeps on bothering me...

and i know whatever that decision is....

im doin things right...

the best for me....

and it will makes me happy

Currently listening to: sexy bitch
Currently feeling: accomplished

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November 22nd, 2009

Paranormal Activity
POSTED AT 01:38 AM in Cerebral Hygiene

You wanna know what I think? I think that those who claim that Paranormal Activity isn't scary at all are just pretending to be tough, showing-off that some creepy indie film didn't scare them in the slightest bit. It is scary! But if you're tougher, as in for real, the effect is just overnight. You still think about it a bit in the morning though. And make these left-and-right head shaking movements accompanied by a little tongue clicking. (Just like saying "Oh my G, that was one helluva movie and it scared the demons out of me.")

I know, I'm talking about myself.

Pero srsly, it is creepy. And it sinks in. This is the first movie that actually had this effect on me. I normally laugh at movies with supernatural themes. But this one, nah.

So, I belong to the bandwagon now.

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November 21st, 2009

Blackmailed
POSTED AT 08:55 PM

Nothing makes a day faster than looking forward to something. And today, what put me through the first half of my day was the fact that me and my friends went out tonight.

This get together was for Joie. To cheer her up from her recent breakup after a 5 year relationship. We (Andrea, Andrew, King, Neli, Joie and I) met up at Rob and had dinner at Don Henrico's, remembering our clerkship experiences. That was the time when we were still students, and from there started comparing our internships at different hospitals. We had a hearty meal, and I felt at home, reconnecting with those I shared a wonderful 4 years of medicine proper with.

After that, we walked to a Karaoke Bar where we sang a mix of vengeful and sentimental songs for Joie. Some, for me. For them, too. I was tipsy and having so much fun, fun, fun, when..

He texted. He says he wants to die. He says I hurt him too much.

It's not the first time he's said that. He does it when I don't text or answer his calls or when I tell him that I don't feel the same. But now, I don't even know what I've done. I was always upfront and honest. And I did try to like him. I tried so hard, that I even DID like him. And he even thought I loved him back already. But it's not enough..

Because I knew the difference when I fell for somebody (who betrayed me instead). Argh. I am being played and twisted by fate.

It's good that work takes so much out of my mind. The brain can only do one thing at a time, and it helps to keep focus on what's in front. In a few hours time, I'll be on track a 32 hour tour of duty, mending other people's bodies when I am so...broken inside.