wants to monopolize..

my happiness :))

i want to have an uber private lovelife for now :P

"Last Christmas
I gave you my heart
But the very next day you gave it away
This year
To save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special"

someone special? eh wala nga as of the moment, hindi yan ang priority ko as of now pero syempre hindi mo pa din maalis na literally MALAMIG ANG PASKO ko this year. magiisang taon na pala pero parang kahapon lang ang lahat. shet. well thats life, aside sa pagiging malas sa lahat, and i mean MALAS SA LAHAT, i still didnt move a bit.

anyways, next week ako manonood ng new moon na magisa, which is back to normal mode for me. sinong gustong sumama? treat ko! hehe..

Then

Less than addiction;

A slight obsession;

An undying compulsion.

Now

More than addiction;

A lifetime obsession;

An undying compulsion.

Sabi ko dati.. "Mahal mo pa ba siya..?"

Sabi niya.. "E kanino ba ko masaya..?"

Ngayon nalilito ako..

Kailangan ba kong mangamba..?

It's been so long since I last played the violin. It has been keyboards, keyboards, keyboards recently. Trying to play the second half of Yiruma's River Flows In You. Still unsuccessful with that. Haha!

So I played the violin this afternoon. My arms hurt from holding it up, and my playing has gotten so rusty what came out were screeching sounds. Remedied that, though. It sounds better now. But I'm still a beginner, so I'm only playing simple pieces.

Later maybe I'll play the guitar. It's been a while since I played with that instrument, too. Have to strum. :)

On another note, I need a boylet, too. Hahaha! Christmas is just around the corner, which means I should feel the loneliness with more intensity. I need some loving on Christmas.

Or maybe not. I got through the past five Christmasses fine. This shouldn't be any different. 

The joy, supposedly, is in giving. So when the joy is gone, when the giving starts feeling more like a burden, that's when you stop. But if you're like most people I know, you give 'til it hurts. And then you give some more.

- Meredith Grey (Grey's Anatomy 6x10) 

that's what I was called back in highschool. because that's what i was.

or is.

cause apparently, 4 years later and i'm still the queen of screw ups and lost things.

how do you get rid of it???

cause seriously, i can't live like this anymore.

i hate her. she's got toe nails like those ogre's..her fingernails matched her toe nails. she's got a long hair full of animals..parasites to be precise. hahaXD she's bringing the eff out of me. she's my seatmate. BITCH. FUCKIN EWWW!!